Construo, or, The Zen of Personal Maintentence
A reflection from the top of my mind right after the event
2/3/94.
Alphonse Bertillon French
1894
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Construo
The process of building
I build myself in every day, week, month, year
I build myself with my actions, my [[Hobbies]], my beliefs
Important areas of Identity
[[Fatherhood]] Relationships Learning Finances Health
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Here we will build our self confidence
Self-Confidence
Self confidence is the concept of being enough, trusting yourself, and knowing what your strengths are. I think it’s also acknowledging areas of growth that needs to be.
I was having a conversation with peers at work [[2024-06-03]]. I was trolling the channels to catch up on what might have happened over the weekend. I saw a thread on a metabase query from a name I recognized, A, and I clicked the link because I realized I was curious.
I hop on and the initial engineer to help, B, says
“what is that on your head!” I was working in VR and so it was my webcam left on with me in my quest 3. He replies We’re at work but I wanna say a lot of out of pocket comments
I then went on to solve the issue for A while B was looking at it by checking the github pull requests. Then I posted in the slack thread the conversation we had about the PR - apparently so well the next person to ask a similar question tagged me instead of B.
I don’t think I’m offended and I don’t believe I should be because I believe he meant well
But I am confused. And maybe that’s because I’m autistic? But ultimately I just wanted to examine the interaction.
Positives
- I think it’s a good practice of my ability to shrug off criticism and
- also my ability to perform under scrutiny.
- I also think I’m at least a little charming. so the two guys weren’t angry and that appeases my anxiety
Takeaways
I think I could have asked for clarification, but I do shy away from even gentle confrontation